Just If I Could Change It

What if I met you few years ago?

What if I met you with a different status?

What if I met you not as yesterday?

What if you never smiled at me?

What if you never made me laugh?

What if you never told your stories?

What if I didn’t say yes?

What if I didn’t give good response?

What if I didn’t expect too much?

Would it make any differences?

If it would,

Could you stop smiling at me?

Could you stop making me laugh?

Could you stop telling me your interesting life?

I wish I could say no

I wish I could be not nice to you

I wish I could lessen my expectation

But everything has happened

And here I am, in the black hole

Again

01:30, June 20^th, 2015

(Agatha Elma Febiyaska)